I can imagine…a letter to Cole.

I imagine your tuxedo that you would wear at your high school prom; something with a touch of camo on it I’m sure. I can imagine your beautiful smile draped in your graduation gown as you stand a foot taller than those around you as you walk down the aisle to your seat at graduation. I can imagine your best man speech at Blake’s wedding and I know that it would bring everyone to tears from laughing so hard. I can imagine when you find your true love, the one girl that you would spend the rest of your life with. The one girl that you would treat just like you treat your mamma; like a queen. I can imagine when you have your first child and although he would be as big as you when you were born, he would still fit in the palm of your giant hand. You would hold him and whisper to him that you would always do what’s best for him, love him, and protect him for his entire life.

I can also imagine that you are now more alive than you have ever been before. I imagine you flying with angels and your beautiful wings spreading for miles. I can imagine that you have the tallest, loudest and toughest truck around, taking it through mud holes bigger than you’ve ever seen. I can imagine that you see deer with more points and bigger bodies than ever seen on earth. I imagine you walking through the fields that you love, with whispering winds quietly blowing the tall grass. I have to chuckle, when I imagine you picking blackberries from the biggest blackberry bushes ever, because I can see your stained lips from eating half of them before gathering them in your bucket. I imagine that you see rainbows that are more colorful and beautiful beyond the human imagination, filled with colors that earth does not hold.

I imagine the homecoming celebration that we will have when our family chain is linked once again. I know that you will be the angel to greet each of us as God calls us home. I can also imagine you pushing other angels aside to get to us as we begin to make our journey to heaven saying, “watch out, that’s my family!” I can only imagine the biggest, most beautiful smile on your face when I see you again Cole. Although I know that God has work for me yet to do here on earth, I long for the day when I can once again hug you and hold you tight. I cannot wait to see you again Cole, and I find comfort in knowing, that because of God’s grace, I WILL see you again. I love you so much Colton.

Love mom